2019 Goals…

It’s safe to say that just like most people I know, 2018 was a rollercoaster of emotions and life was, to say the least, a wild ride. While many amazing things happened in this year, meeting my girlfriend, turning seventeen years old, discovering a new sense of style, 2018 also came with many downs, some that effected me more than I could have imagined. This was the year that my mental health took a drastic turn for the worst at times, I struggled with self image, and I lacked the motivation that I longed to have.

While I wish that 2018 had turned out just a bit differently, we are now in the new year, which means that it is time to let go of the past and work on bettering myself.

  • Start going to therapy to work on the mental health
  • Start working out again, as it was a passion of mine
  • Eat healthy! You know it makes you feel good!
  • Take dance classes!
  • On that topic, try things you have always wanted to (voice lessons, piano lessons, dance)
  • Stop saying negative things about myself
  • Experiment with new styles and trends
  • Even though you’re eating healthy, enjoy yourself. Don’t be so uptight.
  • Try new foods!
  • Go out more, you’re graduating. Enjoy life.
  • Graduate!!
  • Move to San Diego
  • Get a job
  • Get ya license, it’s time. you know it.
  • Go to karaoke, you enjoyed it last time
  • Cook more meals at home
  • Dye my hair
  •  Maybe? Do a solo? At spring concert?
  • Go to concerts!
  • Even if they’re small, go on some trips
  • Stop doubting myself
  • Start enjoying life.

The Best Things About Autumn…

“There is a harmony in autumn, and a luster in its sky, which through the summer is not heard or seen, as if it could not be, as if it had not been!” -Percy Bysshe Shelley

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-The feeling of the first Autumn breeze, the first cool day of the year

– Watching the first Autumnal Harry Potter weekend while snuggled up in a fuzzy blanket

-The Endless amounts of fuzzy socks that are worn

-The baking! The fresh smells of cinnamon, pumpkin, and apple that fill the air, then indulging in amazing treats

-The very first orange leaf that pops up on the tree that you pass by everyday on the way to school

-The acoustic music that plays on repeat throughout the Autumn months

-The Autumn fashion; sweaters, boots, button up skirts, tights, you name it, we love it

-Freeforms 31 days of Halloween, those movies will get you in the spirit!

-The fall flavored coffee’s that come out

-Halloween decorations galore, cobwebs and all, an absolute 10 out 10

-Planning the best Halloween costume

-Rainy movie days consisting of popcorn and cookies

-Handing out candy to trick-or-treaters on Halloween night

-The Spooky feeling that fills the air throughout the month of October

-The light, freeness you feel because Autumn is a new beginning that must be taken advantage of. Enjoy every last moment of it.

September Goals…

“By all these lovely tokens September days are here, With summer’s best of weather And autumn’s best of cheer.” -Helen Hunt Jackson

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  • do yoga much more often
  • start decorating for fall
  • gather more Halloween decorations
  • only order take out once in a while
  • paint on a canvas
  • keep my gpa up
  • stay on top of my bullet journal
  • stop putting so much pressure on myself
  • make time for myself during the week
  • try new recipes (baking and cooking)
  • try to walk 10k steps a day
  • hang out with friends more often
  • blog a lot more
  • find a way to make moola
  • EAT! ALL! OF! MY! MEALS!
  • plan an amazing homecoming
  • read pride and prejudice!
  • try outfits that are outside of my comfort zone
  • listen to new music
  • be happy

Let’s Talk About Creative Outlets…

“I think as long as I have a creative outlet, I’m happy.” -Nat Wolff

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There are times in life when we realize that everything is simply too much. It seems as if everything awful that could possibly happen is hitting us like a tidal wave all at once and there is nothing we can do about it. In those moments, when everything is just too much to handle, what are we supposed to do? How are we supposed to take a deep breath and calm down? I’ve learned over the years that when life is far too overwhelming, the best way for me to take a breather is to turn to one of my many outlets and creative outlets. Some people have a very hard time finding what can calm them down, what can make them feel free, so I’m going to share some of my favorite outlets in hopes of giving some of you some ideas!

  • Painting- Even if you’re no good, pick up a brush and paint a picture. Get those creative juices flowing.
  • Sketch/doodle- If painting isn’t your thing, doodle or sketch a little picture that’ll make you happy.
  • Bake something- I absolutely love baking. Seeing the end result, going through the whole process of creating something, it’s amazing.
  • Re-Decorate your room- If you’re ever stuck in a rut or feel overwhelmed, changing your space is an amazing way to change things up and start with a clean slate.
  • Journal/write- If you’re overwhelmed, you most likely have lots of thoughts circulating throughout your head. Pick up a pen or pencil and write down what you’re thinking, it’s very therapeutic.
  • Take some pictures- Grab a camera, whether it be a DSLR or just your phone camera, go outside, and take pictures of things that interest you.
  • Listen to music- This is probably the most calming outlet in my opinion. Sitting back and listening to your favorite music, tuning out the world for a bit, nothing beats it.
  • Go on a hike/take a walk- Getting out and going into nature is so blissful. Take a second and enjoy the outdoors.
  • Dance- This goes along with painting, whether you’re good at it or not, get some endorphins out, have fun, dance.
  • Talk to a loved one- This might not be everyone’s cup of tea, but I know for me, talking to someone I’m close to helps to relieve some of the stress of life.

Having a creative outlet is needed, because without it, life is much too hard. We are supposed to enjoy life, we are supposed to live, not just be alive, and if our lives are just full of stress, we aren’t doing it right.

Let’s Talk About My Photography…

Photography is such a beautiful way to show others how you view the world through your own eyes. I do it because it allows me to express my creative mind in a unique way Now, I in no way claim to be the world’s best photographer, I don’t claim to even be that great at photography, it’s just something that I find relaxing and comforting. I haven’t mastered anything yet, I still require LOADS of help when it comes to editing photos, settings, and everything in between, but here are some photos that I and the people who have helped me have been able to come up with.

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Mukilteo, Washington. Edited by my lovely girlfriend. (Most are)
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San Francisco, California.
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Mukilteo, Washington.
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Seattle, Washington.
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Beaverton, Oregon.
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San Francisco, California.
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San Francisco, California.
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Las Vegas, Nevada.
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Las Vegas, Nevada.
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San Francisco, California.
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Napa, California.

While I still have a long way to go, I love learning about this hobby and learning about new ways to express myself through it. I hope that everyone who sees these enjoys them and they bring a little bit of happiness to their day!

Let’s Talk About Being Stuck In a Rut…

“But there was a difference between being stuck and choosing to stay. Between being found and finding yourself.” ― Martina Boone

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As humans, we have a habit of trying to plan exactly how our life should turn out. We don’t just set goals for ourselves, we plan and we plan and we plan until we have an unrealistic expectation in our head, this end goal that we work so hard for, and when it doesn’t end up turning out exactly the way that it was expected to, we beat ourselves up over it because we it didn’t go as planned. In life, sometimes things just happen. Sometimes things happen at the worst times, things that we couldn’t have planned for, and sometimes these things completely throw off  the balance of our lives leaving us with absolutely no idea what do. In these situations, we have a choice. We can either sit and dwell on the fact that things didn’t go our way, or we can fight back and make the most of what life has handed to us.

As I’ve said before, I’m someone who loves health. I get up at 6 O’clock in the morning, go to the gym, eat a healthy breakfast, and then go on with the rest of my day. I do this because the healthy lifestyle and going to the gym is what calms my anxiety. Since I’ve been starting the day off with a workout, I’ve noticed that my anxiety is so much more tolerable and I’m able to be my carefree self throughout the day. A few days ago, this took a slight turn when I was running on the treadmill and I strained my ankle. Since this incident, I haven’t been able to walk properly, I’ve been in pretty intense pain, and I haven’t been able to do my workouts. Yes, I can do a workout without my legs, but being someone who loves cardio and feels the happiest when she’s running or getting a real sweat on, it just isn’t the same for me. I’m lucky enough to not have done any serious damage, and I’ll be back on my feet soon enough, but I didn’t realize how hard being stuck would hit me.

The past few days have been full of me questioning “why did I have to get hurt?” “why is the universe against me?” which was all fine and dandy for a second, until I realized that dwelling on the fact that I’m hurt and that I can’t do what I normally do isn’t going to do me any good. Life is what I make of it and if I sit on this couch crying and acting like my entire world is going to end until I get better, I’m just going to be miserable. I realized that I need to focus on the good that’s surrounding me. I have such a loving family that is constantly giving me support and helping me feel comfortable, I have such a loving girlfriend who has been checking up on me and making sure I’m mentally stable throughout the last few days, I’m able to write this, to get my creative juices flowing and my emotions out in a way that makes me feel the happiest, and as cliché as it sounds, I have a roof over my head, food on the table, and clothes on my back. The universe is not against me. This is just a small bump in the road, a little learning lesson that will give me the opportunity to grow.

In the midst of this slightly depressing week, the small revelation of “my life is not as bad as I’m making it out to be” was what I needed in order to get my life back on track. If you’re ever stuck in a rut, or you feel like you’ve hit this bump in the road and you don’t know why the universe would do this to you, take a step back, look around you, and try took look for the positive because I promise, the light will shine through the darkness.